Posted by: psychedchick | September 27, 2009

Slideshow

Written a really long time ago,  but weirdly I can still relate to this.

I lay on my bed. Frustrated and flustered. Happiness had left me. All it left was void. An empty place. I tried to fill it with numerous things but all was momentary. I tossed

Immediately, my thoughts turned to him. Him that I had let go. I heard news of him doing well. Getting a lot of praise. Everyone saying he was perfect. Suddenly, I remember what it felt to have him touch me. Just holding hands felt wrong. Eerie. Like it didnt belong. No, I dont regret it. I turn.

My thoughts fly to him. Him that I wish could let go. My stomach churns at the very thought of not loving him anymore. It seems like I have done so forever. My head wheels as I contrast the feelings I have for both. Couldn’t be more different. I smile sinisterly. I feel cheap. Like a broken rag doll.

Acute stress, the doctor tells me. I need to relax. The aches and pains are result of my brain. It is all in mind. My mind which isnt mine anymore. Thoughts go on in random fashion. Like a presentation gone haywire. One slide after another with no proper sequence. Memories, dreams, reality, fears all flash one after the other.

Somehow, of all that has eluded me. Pain never has.

Ps: It is fiction. A few posts inspired this 🙂

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Responses

  1. sweet, like a presentation gone haywire:)

    N

  2. Lovely write…
    Poetic narration… 😀

    “Happiness had left me. All it left was void. An empty place. I tried to fill it with numerous things but all was momentary” – Loved this passage…

    • 😀 Thanks a lot! Wrote it a while back but still damn relevant!

  3. wow beautiful!
    I remember reading it long back!
    and i remember reading it when some slideshows were roaming in my mind too!
    sigh i could so relate to it!
    Amazing
    Keep up ranting
    i love it !
    And visit my blog too sometimes 🙂

    • I will…. Gimme some time naa please! I aint like I used to be!

  4. Its like a piece of clay this thought .. a well moulded piece!


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